I love summertime! Time to relax, let go and enjoy the energy of the sun. This year, I noticed that taking a time-out has been much more challenging. I have been working on a book, traveling coast-to-coast, and while writing about my personal journey of what I call a spiritual re-birth, something happened. It all started the night before my birthday. I chose a nice, quiet dinner party at my house with my closest family and friends. As the night continued, more and more people arrived and a cake appeared with the words, Rebirth. As I stood there candles lit, family and friends around me, and my dog at my side, I let go. I got out of my head and into my heart. I blew out the candles, let my eyes tear up, and thanked each and every person for being there. Not only for their presence that evening, but for their presence in my everyday life.
I have learned that we are re-born every minute. In every moment, we have an opportunity to think from our heads, feel with our hearts and make a choice that is congruent with our head and heart. To make a choice based on truth vs. lies. For most of my life, I was disconnected from my own heart and feelings. I lived from my head and what I thought was “right.” I did not know how to connect my mind and heart. What was true for me in that moment was that I felt everything that I have been learning, integrating and experiencing over the last ten years come together in an instant. I felt more peace, love, and connection than I’ve ever felt in my life.
Three days later, I had arrived safely in Pittsburgh to finish the editing of my book. While taking a break to have lunch with my Mom, I received a call that my Great Aunt had taken a turn and was expected to pass quickly. We jumped in the car and headed to her house. I walked into the room and saw my Great Uncle in a wheelchair there by her bedside holding the hand of his wife of 63 years. I could feel his sadness and the love between the two of them. My heart broke for my Uncle, while it rejoiced for my Aunt. A rejoice that I never would have felt before through the death of my Father almost seventeen years ago, and more recently the deaths of both of my Grandmothers. I could feel that it was her time to be at peace, as she had fought a strong fight the last several years. She was ready to let go. She passed four hours later.
My time here in Pittsburgh was not the time to relax, finish my book, and recharge. My time here has been chaotic, emotional, and necessary. I have had time to connect with my family, allow the sadness within me arise and release, and remember once again, we only have today. In the past, I would not have allowed myself to feel the sadness. I would attempt to regain control through distractions including food, exercise, happy hour, or TV. Anything to avoid my emotions. Today, I am grateful for the ability to take charge of my life, to trust what I know, trust how I feel and make a conscious choice in alignment with truth. Today, I choose to be fully present, trust in myself, the universe, and the opportunity to rebirth each and every moment.
How can you let go and be more present in your life? Let me know in the comments below!
With love,
Robin
